roughly four years ago, by the person I admired most that when I was let out of my cage, I would change this world. I’ve spent the last four years believing that I am driven enough, powerful enough, and influential enough to change the things that need to be changed in the world. If not the world, then simply my life. Though this became something that was engraved in my way of thinking, time had made these feelings fade. I had forgotten that I was told this until I was listening to a song that I listened to when I was with the person who said this to me. I realized that I am out of my cage now, meaning free to do whatever I please and I haven’t done much to change anything. I spend the majority of my nights wondering when I will have the things I most desire. Sitting in a depressive state, not helping myself at all. Not changing the world, or myself, or anything that matters. I live selfishly. I live as if I am what matters most to everyone, spending my nights alone knowing that I am not what matters most to anyone. And this helps nobody, and changes nothing. So today marks the day that I remember what I was made for. I remember daily that I can be someone who brings life into the eyes of those who feel dead, and bring joy to those who only feel pain. I will live to help people around me, not just help myself. And I will love with more love than I knew I could ever give.
Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror.
Just keep going. No feeling is final.
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